i spent the last hour thinking abt some stuff...

feeling abit annoyed but at the same time maybe abit helpless...BUT.. still with a heart

but sometimes realli.. the spirit is there but the flesh is weak..

i see frenz crumble like cookies... i see depressing ppl everywhere...

some times i juz realli give thanks i dun haf much to worry yet... but maybe cos there's a bigger picture... n God let me haf a peak of it... :)

ever since recent... i've learnt more to look forward than the past... cos there's absolutely no reason why we should unless there's lessons to learn from there... why let them taunt u? yes.. should look ahead but not too far.... if not there's a tendancy that u would say... "ya.. plenty of time ahead..dun worry abt God today.. "



scaryz.... the world is scary now.. who noes the nex moment i could be down to ashes.... struck down by lightning... or electrocuted by my lap top...

ya... unpredictable... ppl say of things recent... but not true... it has always been like tat

it's realli juz how we look at things n how we respond to them

i would not say i handle my life well.... in certain aspects there still are messes around... but instead of gloating abt it n juz sticking my hands in my pockets... some times i try to do something abt it... if not within my meanz... i look to God... n He nv fails to provide answers n solutions... though sometimes we haf to wait damn freaking long...



all is learning process.. life... did God give us this breath to not do something with it?

think abt it...

wad can i do? wad does God wans me to do?



there's no wrong to being depressed.. but rather... i think there's joy as u step out of it... you walk down the road a more matured person... think of e present... scarred but not down... God leads on... life is nv smooth but it's during such bumps we learn more... shed enuff tears when u trip n fall... n continue to pick yrself up ahead...



i feel weak at times... not knowing how to help frenz but i try to loan my hands out for whoever needs a tug or a shoulder to cry on... some frenz say i haf a good ear... *shrugs... no idea... but well... i try my best...

smilez.... my motto...though i wouldnt say i m a smile person but i would wan to work towards tat...



n all i hope i can do now is to share this smile to you my frenz... :)