wad do we understand?

or wad do we realli dont?



wad do we feel?

or wad do we display out of emotions?



wad is right in the eyes of man?

wad is wrong in the eyes of God?



i've been thinking.... quite a fair bit i can say... even though this is one of my most relax sem..doesnt mean tat my mind is on a holiday...

i realli wonder...

many a times... wad we do? are we juz run by our emotions? subconsciously?



to seek God... yes... definitely...

i believe and i'm sure it's thru seeking Him where our eyes are realli opened...



it's so dangerous to close the eyes of our heart....

...

we can't see God

...

we fall into the pit of sin

...



see the seriousness?



i'm a little bothered with issues regarding churches.... i think this is something which sooner or later i will have to deal with it...

i'm glad at least i took the step to try... :)



i went to see pastor wen today... i tried to approach the incident with my own understanding...



take an analogy... seeing a dentist...

seeing a dentist alone..

...

or seeing a dentist with yr mama or papa beside...



i prayed...

"dear Lord... pls do help me to be able to converse well with pastor wen to get the message across as well as receive it at my end"

it's realli not easy...

when i knocked on pastor wen's door... he was on the phone...

i stepped in n sat down...

there's this weird feeling.... but i'm glad God is there as my comforter n strength...

He's like the father there coaxing me.... "hey.. there's nothing to fear... now there's a problem..we juz have to extract or rectify it"



i'm glad the talk went ok...

yepz...



it's not easy...

with a mind telling me...."it will be so much easier if i can let go of bpgc"

BUT....

I dun wan the devil to have the last laugh looking at me being unbalanced and shaken by ministry



do you want tat?

i believe none of us wans tat...



is ministry simply something tat we enjoy?

it's extremely dangerous.. especially in the worship ministry...



music?

or God?



and this is my answer...

music to worship God



right now i m ok...

in fact i felt so much better...

i'm not a person who likes things to drag on...

problems which come to me.. i dun like to run from it



this is reality...

this is our world...

it is ugly...



but..



ok.. before i say this...

i want u to think carefully on wad i m going to type...



God makes things beautiful...



dun juz take this as a catch phrase..

dun juz think "orh.. beautiful... ya"

think in depth



again....



God makes things beautiful...

he wans to make u n me beautiful...

will u?

let him?



closure

problems... we realli can't avoid...

it doesnt mean tat being a fervent christian means we can avoid them all..

trials n temptations will definitely come our way

stay in yr own comfort zone?

r u?

stay in yr own comfort zone?

r u?



church? a time of fellowship... yes

but juz enjoying the fellowship? fullstop?



or should we realli turn back to the Father...

get to know Him.. juz as much He wans to love u...



take time to think...

take time to meditate...

take this time...

to ask for His forgiveness

n again..



ask Him to be the controller of our lives..

the lover of our souls



dear Lord... i cry out to you