feeling extremely lousy these few days

somewhat lost or something

things are tough but still manageable in camp
at home, i dunno why but i get alot of negatism from mum these couple of weeks
stomach's recovered but not fully... prob 80% or so... been 3 agonising week
i feel lerthagic and extremely tired easily these few days

do i still have the energy?

next week's the 1st music ministry meeting for 2006

somehow when over the past few months i've been trying to put things together
which has been going relatively positive well so far...

i feel myself breaking apart

is this all just a test?
if so, i m struggling with it