intended to go down pay last respect to steven
but apparently most of the guys can't make it today
and they postponed it to tmr
thus, i missed today's global day of prayer

what's worse
the repairman who came down to fix the washing machine apparently didnt do his job so i'm bugging him to come by tmr to fix it again
he better turn up before i flush his reputation down the drain

ivy's sick
so i've yet to seen her for 2 weeks
i miss her

it was ironic hearing jin hang and the gang jesting and singing "had a bad day" while they were fiddling around with the guitars


quite a number of the guys are still rearing from the shock of steven's death
judging by the MSN nicks
such as "the pain of losing a close friend"
"life is unpredictable"


i can totally understand when kelvin told me that he didnt slp well the few nights after steven's death
it was just as agonising for myself in the jungle during the survival training
consumed by total darkness, hungry, bitten by insects all over
it's hard not to think of it


apparently God has a message for me this morning
i was like "God, are u joking? or is this really a test?"
it was hard singing
"you have turned my mourning into dancing
you have turned my sorrow into joy"


yes, i believe in You and that this can happen
help me to have faith..


only by praying
this is how i hope to overcome