i'm screwed...

damn screwed...



i took an elective which is the final module for those majoring in software engineering (i.e. java)

and i'm in e-commerce (i.e. towards web-development)

java is the subject which i barely made it for my year 1 and year 2 and i did not have any contact with it last semester...

initially i thot this module, web application design, is dealing with visual basic programming but it turns out to be java...

i'm alright with visual basic... sucks with java...



gladys and i sat in the classroom in a state of shock...

imagine the pace it was going at....

all the other students in the room had taken programming last sem and they don't even need lecture notes to come up with the java codes...

while both of us are frantically flipping the lecture notes for help...

i could not even catch the jokes about the codes made by the lecturer...

there's this girl who's sitting beside gladys

and when she asked that girl how good is she in prog.

she mentioned "ok lah"... and when asked abt her grade...it's AD

what in the freaking hell are these students in my class?

or am i a freaking student in a wrong freaking hell?



it was the most terrifying 1 hr i had for a very long time...



before that had final year project briefing today too...

the stress just kept mounting from that point onwards till i left sch after tat tutorial...

this sem's is the start of the FYP... it constitutes 20% of the whole project...

nex sem 80%

this sem's 20 is basically the itinery and "foundation" of the project

we are recommended to meet our respective supervisor at least once a week this sem

and twice a week nex sem...

and yep...

it's not as i thot it would be...

I.T is different from the other courses...

its final year project is individual work...

unless u haf a project which has a valid enuff reason to work in pairs (only)



seems like the load is really starting to pile...



anyway... back to that tutorial..

immediately after tat we went to see my mentor and my tutor

went to mentor, jane, and told her that the pace was too fast for us to catch and we were just caught shocked...

she told us to speak to my tutor and ask him what he thinks about the situation...

so we went...



we walked about level 4 and 5 classrooms of both blocks in search of mentor and tutor for more than half an hour



found my tutor...

we told him of our present situation

and asked what to do about it...

he also agreed that he was going at a fast pace as he assumed everyone in the class has taken Client Server Programming which was offered last sem for those who wanted to major in S.E.

we asked for help

and he agreed to help us try...



An addition 1 hour of private tuition for gladys and me in his office on wednesday...

and he just happened to hold position quite high up in the sch... where he has his personal own office in the top level.. scary



well...

i'm still pretty stunned by what happened

but i do pray that the extra lesson on wednesday will help us pick up...ya

if not... he will recommend us to appeal to drop the elective... and then we would haf to find another one or get overloaded nex sem...which i wouldnt want it to happen...

the thing i m not sure if he is doing is tat whether he is offering this tuition as a much longer term thing or just an one-off thing...

seriously... we need that extra help..

n this is outside his workscope..

so i m not sure if he will help us regularly...

yup.. this is something which we will ask him on wednesday...



...



i can't think of any other help other than God at this moment...

i remembered vividly this only prayer which came to my mind at that moment when i knocked on the door of my mentor and tutor's office



"Lord,

Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,

Courage, to change the things I can,

and Wisdom to know the difference...Amen"



yup...



yup...





it realised that most ppl, not all though, blog when something bad or negative happened...

and such blogs happened to be very long...

this entry just happen to be one of em

but i guess i juz have to entrust this matter to God and will just see what will happen in the days to come... :-/